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Well i thought it was time i made a bit of a post.

i started my master cleanse/lemon detox last friday. so that means i'm on day 5 right now. i have to say - its been WAY harder than i anticiapted. i was so looking forward to it and had some false illusion it would be a breeze. was i ever wrong! its actually really HARD work going without food for 7 days. to be honest its not really physically hard. i have the lemon drink i make up, and that is a food in itself so i'm not usually hungry or starving. but MENTALLY its soooo hard! i can't stop thinking of food. and its amazing how when you can't HAVE food, you realise how many adverts are based around food! pizza, maccas, kfc, burger king! the list is endless. its really hard to not cheat. but i haven't. and i only have 2 days to go so i really hope i can do this. i'm pretty determined so hopefully that will carry me through. i think i've gotten rid of ALOT of toxins! my skin looks great, i've lost 2 kilos, and my eyes are bright and my nails are heaps stronger. + i SLEEP so much better. usually i get up about 4 times a night to go to the toilet. now i don't get up at ALL.

aside from that all is well. our convention is coming up which i'm excited about. i'm having my friends for dinner on saturday night. dreaming of what i'm going to cook them....MMMMM!

Hello everyone, my name's Kay, and I'm 15 years old. Recently, I have been feeling very depressed and panicky. Today my house almost caught on fire, and my grandpa almost died today because of the fire that was started when his car blew up. Gladly, the firefighters got it out before it went too far, but I still have fear in me for some reason. The way my grandpa was after he got all of the smoke in his lungs, coughing on his hands and knees, that memory won't go away, and it makes me afraid to stay in my house. Sometimes I get upset that he does such daring things in his life; he's lucky he's not dead. Last week, I lost one of my best friends for no reason, I ran into him at a carnival, but he just pushed me away and didn't care. I have no clue what I did wrong. I get chronic migraines, about 3 a week, and I usually feel more upset during one..For the past few weeks, I have been eating and making myself throw up because I feel fat and unhealthy. I weight 108 pounds and I am short. I wish I could be skinny and pretty like all of the other girls. All of the kids make fun of me in school because I have ptsosis, a disease which makes my eyes look very droopy and different. At school they call me, alien eyes, the stoner, the gopher, and just plain creepy. They make me cry because I know I can't help how I look. I've been self harming for 2 years, but slowed down a lot recently for the sake of my friends. I have also been having a lot of problems with my boyfriend, but I don't want to go too much into that. 

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Yesterday, my counsellor suggested I do EMDR with her, to try and resolve my issues. Has anyone done this before? Did it work?

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hey.. 
i have another question.
and i might just sound stupid for asking this...

but does anyone else like to cry?..

I think that should be my theme song when it comes to driving. At the end of June, I totaled my beloved red 2005 Hyundai Elantra with the moon roof. It was used when I bought it, but it was the first car that I got to pick out and it was in my name only. It was as close as I was ever going to get to the red BMW convertible that I would have if I ever won the lottery. It was bound to happen. In the 3 years I have been working so far from home, I have rear-ended at least 5 people and I was hit by someone not more than 2 weeks after I had had the car repaired one of the times.

I have this problem with dozing off and zoning out behind the wheel. I drive 28 miles each way to work in stop and go traffic. I listen to the radio, I drink cold Pepsi, I sing, I roll down the windows, I eat, you name it, I have tried it. Sometimes I even stop to walk around at the halfway point. When I totaled my car though, I wasn't asleep. I don't really know how it happened. To add insult to injury, I had within the month prior, put 5 new tires, a new rim (thanks to Chicago potholes), new front brakes, and a filled my gas tank to the tune of $50 just that morning. Plus, I was only 3 miles from work and had to have my car towed home and miss the day, wasting one of my rare vacation days.

So barely a month ago I bought a new used car. It wasn't what I wanted. It's silver instead of a nice color. It doesn't have a sun roof. And my payments are double what they were on my Elantra. But it gets good gas mileage and that's what I need most. So last night I was driving home and smash, I rear-end an SUV. That's another thing. I can't just hit small cars like mine. I have to hit SUV's, mini-vans, utility trucks....the kind of vehicles that show little or no damage despite the wreck my car becomes.

I didn't even want to call my insurance agent. He's getting flack from the company for all the claims they have had to pay out. Pretty soon they'll probably drop me as a client. My doctor threatened to have my license suspended. Truth be known, I would really rather not drive any more. I feel like I'm just a disaster waiting to happen. Nobody has ever been hurt so far, but the odds are certainly in favor of it. But if I don't drive, I can't work. If I don't work I can't pay my bills... I thought about not fixing the car, just letting it stay the way it is. Then one of two things would happen. Either I wouldn't get into anymore accidents because my car was already smashed, or I would just end up hitting someone else and I could get the car fixed that time or the next and save myself a couple of insurance claims.

Or maybe I should just quit driving. No car payments, no insurance payments, no gas or repair expenses. I could go on disability. I mean if you can't drive because you don't have the attention span of a fly, then you can't work either, right? Or maybe the next time I get in an accident I can hit a tree at high speed, kill myself and my family can collect my life insurance and pay off all my debts.

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